Meanwhile I really want us to be a family unit and I know that a name doesn't define a family but I think i'd feel left out with Mark and baby girl having the same last name and me having a different one. I'm thinking about adding marks last name to my last name with a hyphen, giving me a double barrelled last name until we get married. Then I would drop my last name and become a Mrs. I did think about just dropping my last name now and then when we do get married just become Mrs but this just doesn't feel right. Mark is completely supportive of whatever I decide to do as he does understands how I feel.
I just hate the thought of me having a different last name to baby girl on her birth certificate. I know it's only a piece of paper but it really does bother me. I know that our last names will still be different but at least we'd partly have the same last name. I think I might feel differently if me and Mark weren't already engaged but we have been for 4 years now (longest engagement ever I know) I always wanted the big white wedding that as a little girl I dreamt about but now baby girl is on her way I realize that this isn't as important as it once was. Now I just want to marry the man I love and the father of my soon to be daughter.
It is a big step to change my last name (or add a name as I would be doing) and I really want to do it but I still can't make a decision. I know one person who changed her last name to her boyfriends just before their little girl was born and at the time I thought she was completely crazy and I couldn't understand why she did it but now it all makes sense.
Did anyone else feel the same if you weren't married when you had children? Or didn't you mind?
Thanks for reading,