10 weeks have pasted since having my gorgeous little girl and my body feels a mess. I always thought I would be one of those women that are straight back into their old jeans days after giving birth. But it's hasn't been that easy.
My diastisis recti means that my mummy tummy will be around for a little longer than I planned. I have to work extra hard to get the muscles to close back together. So far so good. The muscles seem to be closing but I'm still waiting for my appointment to see a physical therapist.
Elsewhere on my body I still have extra weight. Around 10lbs that I want to lose. If I wanted to get back to my pre pregnancy weight I would have to lose A LOT more. But I was tiny before, a size 6! And now I'd love to be a size 8. I used to struggle finding clothes that fit me and I don't want to go through that again.
All my life I've been small... I'm only 5'4 as is it. I've always been underweight and found it very hard to put weight on. I was very lucky, I could eat what I wanted and I'd still stay tiny.
While trying to conceive I read that been under weight could effect your chances and I believe it did play a part. So I tried to gain weight and managed to gain a few pounds which I was happy with.
During pregnancy I lost some weight in the first few months due to bad morning sickness but then put it back on just fine. I expected to put a little more weight on than most people as I was so small before. I think in the end I put on around 2 and a half maybe 3 stone. I didn't weigh myself in the final weeks because it honestly didn't bother me. I wanted a healthy baby and boy did I get one at 8lb 6oz :)
Now not only do I have extra weight, my hips are also wider and my rib cage broader. Mark says it gives me a more womanly figure but I'm not so keen.
My stretch marks look a lot better than they did 10weeks ago and I know they will improve some more. I thought it would be the end of the world and it really isn't. It just proves that I carried a healthy baby. I'm proud of them. I don't think I'll be wearing a bikini anytime soon but maybe in time.
I have gone back and fourth with the idea of showing you my belly after pregnancy. As you can see I couldn't quite manage to show you in colour or give you a front view but I did my best.
While I'm not 100% happy with my body I know in time it will improve. It may not be exactly like it was before but I'm willing to pay that price for my beautiful girl.
Thanks for reading,