A panic attack wasn't the main aim of my day last Sunday.
We were doing the weekly food shop as usual for a Sunday. It was slightly busier than normal due to the time of year but apart from that everything else was the same.
We were about 80% done when I started to feel a little off. Something wasn't quite right. We stopped and I had a drink of water. My scarf felt like it was tightening up around my neck, I rushed to take it off. I became hot and faint. All I could see what blackness, my eyes kept going out of focus. Mark told me to sit down. As I walked away from him and Paige I struggled to breathe. My chest felt tight. The tears started to stream down my face. I finally made it to a chair. Mark was close by but not directly next to me as he had Paige in the trolley.
It got harder and harder to breathe. I had lost control. I sat there on the chair struggling to breathe. No one approached to see if I was ok, clearly I wasn't. After what felt like a lifetime I told myself I had to calm down, I had to gain control. After a few minutes I started to control my breathing. I regained control of my body.
I sat. Just staring into space. I'd just had a panic attack. I had no idea why and still don't now looking back on the situation.
I went to find Mark. I told him I was fine as he had carried on shopping as I just wanted to go home. He asked me how I felt and to be honest I felt fine. I felt better for having the panic attack as crazy as that sounds.
When we were at the checkout I started to feel panicky again. I was being rushed and hated that feeling. Somehow I managed to get it under control before it developed into another attack.
We got home. I had lunch then went to lay down. I had a huge headache and felt horrible. The rest of the day wasn't good. I didn't eat tea and slept a lot.
I'm hoping it was a one off. I wanted to write this post for me. For me to remember how horrible it felt and how I hope it won't happen again. If it does happen again I have this to look back on.
Have you dealt with panic attacks?
Thanks for reading,