You'd think that because I'd being through pregnancy before that I wouldn't be nervous this time around. This time around I'm nervous for different reasons. With Paige I was nervous how I'd cope as a new mum. I was scared how I'd handle the sleepless nights. I'd never held a newborn baby before yet alone looked after one.
This time I know how to deal with all that because I've done it before. I know that I'm a good mummy. That I can change a nappy quicker than Mark can sneeze (I'm that good!) That I can manage the sleepless nights with plenty of tea and cake.
I felt so lucky when Paige was a newborn. I loved every second. It all came so easily for me. It felt like my calling in life. I never wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer. I wanted to be a mum. To stay home and look after loads of children, to watch them grow, to kiss their knees when they hurt themselves, to bake cupcakes on a rainy afternoon. I'm so lucky that I get the chance to do that. Its hard at times and sometimes I do wish I had a 9-5 job but I wouldn't trade it for anything and I know a million mums would trade with me if they could. There's equally millions of mums that love working and that's fine too.
But I have days where I worry about being a mum to two children. Will I love bubba as much as I love Paige? Will I be able to split my time? Will I be any good? How will I handle the sleepless nights and chasing around after a crazy toddler?
Loads of questions rushing around my head which I'm sure are perfectly normal but it's scary. Exciting, yes, but scary, very scary.
Everyone says that going from 1 to 2 children is the hardest thing. After that they all just fall into place. You're already a pro at managing your time and splitting your attention. I'm sure we will be fine but I guess the unknown is scary. I've never being a mummy to two children before. I have no idea how I will handle it.
Did you have second time nerves?
Thanks for reading,