Monday, 20 January 2014

Second Time Nerves

You'd think that because I'd being through pregnancy before that I wouldn't be nervous this time around. This time around I'm nervous for different reasons. With Paige I was nervous how I'd cope as a new mum. I was scared how I'd handle the sleepless nights. I'd never held a newborn baby before yet alone looked after one.
 
This time I know how to deal with all that because I've done it before. I know that I'm a good mummy. That I can change a nappy quicker than Mark can sneeze (I'm that good!) That I can manage the sleepless nights with plenty of tea and cake.
 
I felt so lucky when Paige was a newborn. I loved every second. It all came so easily for me. It felt like my calling in life. I never wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer. I wanted to be a mum. To stay home and look after loads of children, to watch them grow, to kiss their knees when they hurt themselves, to bake cupcakes on a rainy afternoon. I'm so lucky that I get the chance to do that. Its hard at times and sometimes I do wish I had a 9-5 job but I wouldn't trade it for anything and I know a million mums would trade with me if they could. There's equally millions of mums that love working and that's fine too.
 
But I have days where I worry about being a mum to two children. Will I love bubba as much as I love Paige? Will I be able to split my time? Will I be any good? How will I handle the sleepless nights and chasing around after a crazy toddler?

Loads of questions rushing around my head which I'm sure are perfectly normal but it's scary. Exciting, yes, but scary, very scary.

Everyone says that going from 1 to 2 children is the hardest thing. After that they all just fall into place. You're already a pro at managing your time and splitting your attention. I'm sure we will be fine but I guess the unknown is scary. I've never being a mummy to two children before. I have no idea how I will handle it.

Did you have second time nerves?

Thanks for reading,

Nicola xx

7 comments:

  1. I had TONS of second time nerves and I kept writing and writing and writing about them, but they didn't go away until my second baby was actually here and I knew it was okay. I was the same, felt like I knew the technicalities of looking after a baby, but not a baby and a toddler. And yes it was challenging at times. But it becomes your new normal so quickly, that in no time at all you can't remember how you filled your time with just one kid to look after. You will be fine lovely, I promise!!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you sweetie. I know you're right. Having a baby become very normal after not long at all. I'm sure a baby and toddler will be the same x

      Delete
  2. I had lots of second time nerves and I wrote about them a lot but i promise it will be fine. You will look back and wonder why you were worrying! Although it's easy for me to say that. But it's true! x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hehe. Thank you sweetie. It's scary to think about as you know x

      Delete
  3. God yes, even though we were trying when I found out I was pregnant again I had a mix of happiness and 'oh god I've actually done it' ...like you I questioned how I could possibly love another baby as much..how I'd cope but I think the answer is ..you've got too! And once you see them the rest of the anxiety will just melt away. Plus seeing our little ones be older bothers/sisters is going to be the best added bonus ever!!!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. It is one of the things I'm looking forward to most. I remember when we first found out we were pregnant with Paige evern though we were trying I couldn't actually believe it had happened x

      Delete
  4. This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

    ReplyDelete

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...
 
Design by Studio Mommy (© Copyright 2014)