I've being a mum of two children for just over 6 weeks now and I feel very much settled into my new role.
While I was pregnant loads of people told me how hard having two children was. As much as I was looking forward to meeting Parker I was scared by other people into wondering how on earth I would cope with the big adjustment.
When Parker arrived and Mark went back to work I actually loved every second. I was somehow more organised and felt more at ease with two children than I did just one. I have no idea how that is even possible but it's true. I feel like I've adjusted and coping really well.
I'm not saying it's all easy but it isn't as hard as I was imagining. The hardest thing for me is the lack of sleep. When Paige was a newborn I was able to nap during the day when she did but with two children this isn't so easy. In the early days there were many times during the day when parker would be fast asleep and all Paige wanted to do was play, which was fine because she is after all a 2 year old. This was also made harder by the fact that Paige's naps were so hit and miss. 6 weeks later and Parker is in a good sleep routine with the occasional bad night but that is also fine as he is still so young. I am very lucky that Paige is a good sleeper at night and for 99.99999% of the time sleep 12-13hours.
I'm not going to lie... I've had a few days when I've cried from the tiredness, it was just too much. Running around two children all day on your own with little and broken sleep is hard but I just kept telling myself that it wouldn't last forever. There would come a time when I'd miss getting woken up and being able to have newborn snuggles in the middle of the night when the rest of the house was quiet. I don't get as much alone time with Parker as I did with Paige so I do treasure him waking me up as much as I love/want sleep. Some women would give anything to be woken up by a baby that needed them so I remind myself each and every time just how lucky I am.
I'm lucky to have these extra dark circles under my eyes. I'm lucky to have a little mummy pouch and stretch marks. I'm lucky to have two beautifully healthy children.
Don't get me wrong there are times when I want to pull my hair out. Times when one child has to cry that little bit longer than I wish they did. Times when Paige asks 'mummy more pig' and I give in and turn the tv on just so I can have 5 minutes peace. Times when I give Paige an extra biscuit just to stop a tantrum.
I know as they both grow older things will evolve and change. But all I have to do is look at them both and remember just how blooming lucky I am!
Thanks for reading,