But I've had to carry on.
I would much rather curl up in bed and sleep. My body needs to rest but I can't. I still had to do the pre school run this morning. I still had to take care of Parker who has had far too much tv time today but even sitting up makes me feel worse. He's such a good boy.
The first trimester is always the same for me. It doesn't get any easier. It probably gets harder. Harder because my other babies need me. They need to me carry on. Harder because I know how long it lasts. I'm lucky that with my previous pregnancies the HG has faded at 16/18 weeks. Some people aren't that lucky. I hope it goes again this time but only time will tell.
I don't have many people around me to help with the kids. Mark and other friends and family work full time or are too far away to help. It's hard to cope. Some days, like today, I cry, today I've cried a lot.
I am very thankful that usually my tablets work. Usually they help me keep food down for me and the baby. I'm normally still nauseous 24/7 but I've accepted that is the new norm for me right now. I can handle that, most days.
After being sick so many times I couldn't count, I just couldn't handle anymore. I headed off to the doctors. I need help. We phoned my dad who came round after work. Mark stayed with the kids and my dad and his partner came to the doctors with me. I was too weak to go by myself. The doctor sent me straight to hospital, I am very sick, very dehydrated and my pulse is racing. She said if I hadn't of gone to the doctors with someone she would of had to call an ambulance, that's how bad I was.
In hospital I had anti sickness injections, 8/9 huge bags of iv fluids and more iv anti sickness. I finally got to eat and keep it down 36 hours after I'd last eaten.
The doctor gave me another type of tablet to take with my regular ones. We are hoping that both tablets together will help.
HG is hard.
I only have it quite mild. Some woman have it so much worse than me. I don't know how they do it but they are bloody amazing.
Me and this little baby will beat HG just like I have twice before.